Kate.

Sometimes she pisses me off so much.

I do realize that a lot of this has to do with me pissing myself off. I didn't do an undergraduate in psychology for nothing. I realize that one of the reasons I want to help Kate so much is because I want to believe that when I become like that in a year or so I can be helped. But that's not all of it. There's my natural tendency to want to help everyone and of course my white knight syndrome. But its also that she tries so hard to help everyone else, and it's just unfair and stupid that she should take all the burden on herself and not share it at all. I just want to take some of that burden off of her. Remind her that she is a real live woman who can have a life outside of Orpheus and who shouldn't have to carry the weight of the entire company's emotionally well-being on her shoulders. I want to help! Even if it's just by letting her talk about it to someone else. But she wont let me.

Sometimes I think she does it on purpose. I think she has a martyr syndrome. She only feels worthwhile if she is miserable for the sake of others.

And on top of that she keeps Foreboding. When she knows I can do it, and often do it without meaning to.

I just wish she would share the burden.

Is that totally unreasonable?