Everyone in this company is so damaged. I mean I'm one to talk but still. You have Elena who has the self esteem of a scared mouse, despite the fact that she is literally a computer genius; you have Murphy who puts on this mask of asshole to cover up the fact that he is complete emotionally destroyed which is covering up the fact that he is in fact exceptionally strong-willed (I know, three layers. Like a cake. Or a really small onion like a shallot); You have Rizotto who uses anger to cover up confusion; you have Westing who uses drugs to.... no he just uses drugs and then you have Kate who runs herself into the ground trying to take care of everyone's crazy without realizing that that is her crazy.
I mean really.
Personally, I think Murphy is the most fucked up but I'm suspecting he has some real damage there that may hopefully one day be healed. I just worry about how he might be pushing his issues on Faith, or at least using Faith to work out his own issues and I worry for how that will effect both of them if it goes wrong. Then again it might go right and then they will both be better for it. We'll see.
Kate.... Kate needs a vacation. And someone to talk to, but she won't talk to me because she knows how it effects me and doesn't want to put me through that. I know how she feels. We've started a pretty good game of Go though. I suspect she will kick my ass.
At least with Elena I can have some sort of effect. All she needs is some encouragement and recognition I think. Or at least that's as good a start as any.
Don't even get me started on Rizotto. I don't even want to open that can of worms. I have a feeling the can is bigger then I can handle.
Meanwhile, I have these stupid images eating away at my brain. I need to learn to meditate better. Fast.
No comments:
Post a Comment